a poem about bella and jacob in

Just Grab My Hand

my jacob black
i can see
that you have
feelings for me

now you have me confused
what am i feeling?
i've never felt liek this before
this idea leaves me reeling

i am glad
i know you care
you like me for me
not the color of my hair

but i'm so selfish
i can't let you go
i need you
more than yuo even know

like a drug, you are to me
out of control
but i'm not even sure what i'm feeling
what exactally is my goal?

they say we fit together
that we, eachother, understand
it's a leaf of faith
just grab my hand

now you ahve me confused
what am i feeling?
i've never felt like this before
this idea leaves me reeling...

don't let go

ew that is the sickest thing i ever saw? what is with this week and gore??

ok so disecting a frog wasn't enough guts for me this week, i get a double dose, watching a fab movie in driver's ed called "red asphalt III". ya the name says it all. it was so sick! we saw people's brains and blood spattered all over the ground, and the people who had to pick it up, and the rest of the body, with chuncks missing out of the skull as the pulled it, mangled, out of the crash. ew that is o sick! i'm always going to wear my seatbelt now. there was so much blood...

finals! they are over (except one) i stayed up late last night finishing it all, but in the end i got it done! but for a price...:-s i feel asleep during my goemetry final today...oops....so i kinda guessed on the last bunch of questions...yaaa, we'll see how that turns out...

also i was SUPPOSED to get my cheer uniform today!!! but they LIED! it's not here yet!!! uuurgh!!!

also i feel kinda bad today...well i was a bit harsh to my guy friend, but i would've chickened out and not talked to him about something, but then i made the mistake (but was it really bad that i did?) of telling erica what it was about, so sence i was too shy and chickened out basically of talking to him, erica marched right up and told him everything, while i jsut stood there looking like an idiot. then he didn't even hug me today! so i hope he isnt mad at me..... i'm sorry to him, if he reads this!

ok did that last paragraph make any sense? i hope so, but i'm not changing it to make it more understandable, so tough beans


FRIEND SOPTLIGHT:

this friend is a bit crazy, sometimes. but they are a lifesaver. always "helping" me with my home work. but we both "help" eachother, almost trading off on who helps who. we always have something to talk about, and it usually ends up to be one single thing! but whatever they think, i don't get tired about talking about it. they are my voice, when i'm too shy to actually speak up and do stuff. i'll say it again: they are a lifesaver. what would i do without them?

deadly finals ugh! i hate them

ok here's something about me today:

things i love:
~the beach, any beach
~the color blue
~cheer
~boys
~tabasco, or chalula mm
things i hate:
~disecting animals :-s
~boys
~finals
~flipping on the trampoline, but not landing on the actual trampoline
~bad hair days (like today)
things i'm going to do before i die:
~stay up for a whole night
~sleep for a whole day
~learn to sing and play piano, at the same time!-waaay impossible
~stop being shy
song i'm listening to right now:
~here comes the sun by the beatles
stuff i should be doing right now, but instead i'm blogging
~french final, geography final, english final oh joy
stuff i did today at school:
~disected a frog, omg i almost puked...
~D.E. was canceled, yeeess
~fitted for camp wear (cheer stuff)
stuff i'm looking forward to
~turning 16
~summer vacation
~BBQ next tuesday night
~yearbook
~CHEER UNIFORM TOMORROW!
~not waking up at 6:00 am everyday


FRIEND SPOTLIGHT:

this friend, is one of the sweetest people i know. They always listen to me, even when i'm probably boring them with my stupid petty life problems. They try to offer solutions, not always the best ones, but try to be helpful. They are very funny, and intelligent, and very easy to read.

The Fun Run! (and various other unknowns)

well the fun run was great! even in the 80 degree weather. and just lie i predicted, my face turned waaay red. UGH! i hate that so much! it's so terribly ugly, and it emphasizes my white eyebrows, so i look like an oompa loompa. great! but i got 10min flat, which isn't good, but isnt all together bad!*sigh* i miss the 8 min i used to be able to run, back in 7th grade...

FRIEND SPOTLIGHT!:

this friend is kind, understanding, and keeps me in line. they know where everything in my house is, and have a tendancie to lock my door, after we come in lol. they hate cats, and has been forced to watch alot of stupid movies with me :)

a mix of everything

so cheer is fun! and i really really REALLY want a wave board, even though i got hurt by one. but it wasn't my fault i swear!!! someone's board went shooting out from under them, and rammed straight into my ankle, going like a thousand miles an hour. but it should be ok by tomorrow, when i'm going to run the mile after school in the blistering heat of 81 degrees, in the sun, and i'm going to suck, and my face will turn really really red, and sweat and gorss! and ugh! who knows! maybe i'll get sunburned!!

ok now onto the contest thing that i'm doing, for my friends! so i'm going to describe a friend, and you guys guess who it is! i'll reveal the names on sat

TODAY'S FRIEND SPOTLIGHT:

they are funny, love to tease, love to make up their own fortune for fortunes for fortune cookies, like dark colors, aren't squeemish (sp?) about cutting open frogs, brown hair, naturaly curly/wavy hair, doesn;t like me to paint their finger nails ;)

OK GUESS AWAY!

driver's ed

so driver's ed is getting metter...more bearable
but i'm pretty proud of myself! i've never hit a cone. AND i've driven a total of THREE TIMES. i parked three different ways, very well, (90, a 45, and pull up to a curb) backed out, done the little serpintine thing through the cones, in foward AND backword. woo! and i'm the queen of U-turns. boo yah!! :D

old friends

have you ever had an old friend, one who you knew sence you were really really little, and played all kinds of silly games with every day? then you see then years later, and it's like you were never apart? that's how it was yesterday when i was being an extra at east for High School Musical 3 and i saw Christine Baird! we had so much fun catchig up, we laughed remembering the lips syncs we did to "oops i did it again" *shakes head* i hope we don't have any of those on tape anywhere. that's some serious blackmail right there lol. i hope we get to hang out again soon!!

ok so about being an extra: it went till TWO IN THE MORNING!! on a SCHOOL NIGHT. psh the $82 bucks we got wasn't NEARLY ehough for THAT long. jeez i got totally ripped off! eeh at least idid get to bask in the glory of zach effron for 12+ hours. oh AND scott pualson. haha me and my friends yelled "NUMBER 42'S A BABE" really loud, but he [scott] didn't look up. oh well. hee hee someone pastsed him later. that was funny. he was standing talking to zach and alot of ofther basket ball boys, when one of them jsut yanked his shorts down. luckily that's all that came down though. it was a blast, but if someone asked me to do it again, i would pass (unless the pay is atleast $150) beause i'm dog tired today



*UPDATE*
k so i totally screwed up lol. his name isn't scott at all. *shakes head* sorry christine!! ya i'll work on finding out his real name. heh heh ... ... ...:-s

i hope i can do this

well mom gave me two days notice of when she was going to take me to the DMV to get my permit, so i've been cramming for the past two days hopind i could pass, and i did this morning. woo! now my mom talked to the afterschool driver's ed teacher to get me in the class, even though i'm late. she thinks i can just pick up where everyone else is, and do all the make up work, and study for finals in my classes, and keep up with piano practicing. i'm two weeks late into the class though! that's alot of work. i have a friend in there, sam, and i was asking him what the work we've been doing is like. he said it's ALOT lf book work, and he doesn't know how i'm going to do it all. well that pretty much wrecked my day right there. THAT on top of everything else i have, i feel like i'm being crushed by all the stress sometimes. ugh and the teacher there, (i went for the first time today) coach bills is so cold. never smiles. and he was almost rude! he wasn't the one my mom talked to, so he didnt know who i was. i brought the reciept from the treasurer to show i paid for this class, and it had had all the other fees i'd paid this year on it. he looked at it, then sneered "you're a cheerleader". really, thats how he said it. wow way to make me feel welcome to the class. he said he wouldn't have let me in the class this late, and i'd have to talk to coach talk (the one my mom talked to) who wasn't going to be there until monday. but he said i should stay for today. all we did that day was watch two very depressing movies about ppl that were killed by drunk drivers. i was having a pretty good day until i went to that class. now i don't know how i'm going to keep up. he says next week we have range, but i don't know if i can do that! i know i can't get out of it, i have no choice because mom really really really wants me to take it now. i have no choice. sam said maybe i'll just "fail out of the class"...

Alot of things...

well cheer is going great! we're having practices after school now on tuesdays and thursdays! i'm sore kinda now, but that may just be from the combined efforts of erica and abbie to break my back on the trampoline. psh it really hurts! anyway, back to cheer. i think i'm going to run for head of sophmore squad, even though mom doesn't want me to. if i don't win i don't really care. alot of the girls on my squad are running, so we'll see what happens.

today was like, the best day ever!!!! i saw my future husband. well not REALLY, but i wish, kinda. anyway i was walking down the stairs on my way home from cheer practice, and i was waiting for erica to be done using my phone (her's was taken away). anyway, so i was leaning on the edge of the the banister at the top of the stairs, laxily looking over at the high school musical ppl. then i noticed that one of the girls looked alot like the girl who plays the lead, then she walked away, and behind her there was a boy, ZACH EFFRON!!!!! WOOO!!!!!! YES!!! my life is complete. i've been waiting to see him for ever, looking for him in the halls when i can and yes!!! there he was!!! so anyway i gasped kinda loud heh heh and he looked up, and he has really really pretty blue eyes. but then i stepped back so he couldn't see me anymore. then i grabbed erica, frantically trying to talk, but i couldn't, so i just shoved her (a bit harder than necessary) aginst the edge of the banister, so she could see. she protested loudly (thanks alot) and he looked up again!!!!! i don't know if that was good or bad. so that pretty much made my day and i've made it my life goal (the second one) to see him again. oh and he's really short.

first JOB (perhaps?)

i'm applying for my first job at emogration! woo hoo! i have a friend, ryan who works there, and if HE can get hired then i think i have a pretty good chance :) no offence to him though. he says he was hired in two days. so me and my friend erica are applying. it would be so great because it's so close to home! hannah will be so jealous ;) cross your fingers for me! oh and mom is making applying such a big deal though... :-



um me and erica are getting really good at flips on the tramp, and we are going to try out the the olympics next time... um not. but we are getting better...ish!



tune into the glen beck show next tuesday (the sixth) to see stephenie meyer!